Saturday, November 11, 2017

Stages of Burnout

I was listening to one of the better shows on CBC Radio, White Coat, Black Art, which happened to focus on the stresses that physicians face in their practices and at hospitals.
In one of the segments the host, Dr. Brian Goldman, speaks to Psychiatrist, Dr. Mamta Gautam -- known as the "doctor's doctor."  The most interesting portion of this segment was a quick sketch of how to tell if you, or in this case physicians, can tell that they are merely stressed or burnt out.
Dr. Gautam "advises people in stressful jobs to make themselves aware of the stages of burnout so they can seek treatment earlier."
A well drawn graphic is worth a thousand words so here's the graphic to help you figure out if you should be seeking help or everyone around you is truly dumb.
Graphic Credit: CBC Radio


Once the problem is identified, what's one to do?  Well, as it turns out, Dr. Gautam has something to say about this.  In an article published in the Canadian Journal of Diagnosis (January, 2004) Dr. Gautam suggests the following:

1. Take care of yourself
Eat properly, get enough sleep, exercise regularly

2.  Get your own family doctor

3.  Improve time-management skills
Stay on top of paperwork, so as to be more efficient

4.  Set priorities
Include yourself and your family at the top of your list of priorities, not just work-related activities
Make time for supportive family and friends

5.  Anticipate and prepare for situations
• Remain in control at home and at work

6.  Learn to say “no”
Assert yourself by setting and maintaining limits

7.  Take regular breaks and holidays

8.  Laugh more often
Be around people who make you laugh

9.  Learn to relax
Use techniques like meditation, visual imagery, spiritual relaxation, and practice them daily

10.  Let go of the need to be perfect
Set more realistic expectations

11.  Learn to waste time
Know that you don’t have to be productive all the time

12.  Manage money better
Live within your means

13.  Acknowledge guilt
Realize that you are feeling guilty when you think of doing things for yourself, so that you can go ahead and do these things
Source: Coping with Stress and Burnout

Friday, September 22, 2017

Work and other News

Project Management

I've  officially started working as a project manager. This is the culmination of many months of work, a good amount of study and more than a few acts of kindness.
I was originally rooting around for a short term project at my work place for a change of pace. I asked around for some project which had a definite beginning and end. Three months later, I was asked to help with a collaboration between my work place and an outside agency.
As if this wasn't enough, I am one course away from getting a PM Certificate from my alma mater which would qualify me to take the "gold standard" exam with the vaunted Project Management Institute. This would entail a lot of studying -- there are multi-day courses which help to prepare you -- to sit for the 4 hour exam.
I'vee just started working on a project which will, I think, be challenging and gratifying. It is, in fact, a program in progress with multiple projects within it. At this early stage, the word amorphous comes to mind. But it's still early days and that descriptor is probably, in equal measure, a result of my lack of familiarity with the program and the on-going nature of the program extant.

Maynooth AirBnB

On our way to Algonquin's interior, we decided to split our journey in to two days.  On the first, we started our drive north late in the day, slept overnight at a B&B in Maynooth, about a 30 minutes drive to Algonquin.  The B&B had a beautiful little gallery attached to it.  You can find this gem, Wildewood Guest House, on AirBnB.











Algonquin Park Provincial Park

My trip to Algonquin with a friend from work is best described as a bust. Three days of mostly rain and camping on a promontory (which is great when it's warm and sunny but a windy, exposed hell in inclement weather) wore my co-worker down and we honoured one of the few rules we had for this trip: Either of us could call the trip off without initial explanation. We would pack up and leave and talk about the reasons for bugging out on the paddle back to civilization.
The day we abandoned our trip started  with rain (this was day 3) and the forecast called for thunder showers in the afternoon. Seeing a window of about 3-4 hours we packed and left.
Pics from the trip which, despite its early termination was still memorable....click on the pics for a larger view.
The view from our campsite.

Our kitchen setup.

Tarp setup for the incessant rain.

My favourite pic of the whole trip.

Black Spruce sap...amazing fire starter.

Winding our way through a narrow passage on the way back.
Canoeing on Galeairy Lake on the return trip.
Using the paddle as a sail on the windy paddle back.

Waiting for the unceasing rain to end across the bay from our campsite.
My 2nd best picture of the trip: my paddling partner washing dishes.

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Algonquin Park Canoeing 2017

I will finally be returning to Algonquin Park for a canoe trip into the interior.  I was going to go solo this year as I couldn't find a paddling partner.  Seth, who is 16 yrs old, didn't want to go because...he's 16 yrs old and Tarah, who is 12 yrs old, has never enjoyed roughing it because "the washrooms smell!" And Marsh just returned from a 5 week trip to China/Vietnam and camping is not really her thing.

Fortunately, my co-worker, Nya, took pity on me and said she would love to do an interior trip as she's never been canoeing...at least not this kind of wilderness trip.

Amazingly, we put the trip together on the "back of a napkin."  I drew up a list of the essentials, we met once to discuss food and review the equipment list and here we are less than 24 hrs before departure.  I organized and packed for several hours yesterday and did some more detailed gathering of smaller items tonight (August 15th).

I also bought a few new items for the trip: a back pack which happened to be on sale at Canadian Tire; a dry bag which Tracey O. graciously picked up for me from MEC; and a new and more substantial utility knife.  I
passed on getting a sweet gravity water filtration bag by Katadyn even though it quickly filters all impurities (including bacteria and viruses) out because of the cost and the fact that it is bulkier than the alternative -- water purifying tablets.  The tablets or liquid version of the tablets, take about 30 minutes before the water they're dissolved in is safe to drink.  The gravity filtration bag is about $89 and the tablets a mere $14 or so.  Sigh.  The crappy thing is, when I first was looking around for a filtration option, the Katadyn bag was on sale at Canadian Tire for $70.  When I finally finished researching the topic a few days later, the bag was no longer on sale...so, yeah....lesson learned.  Be decisive.  No one likes a ditherer.

The route we'll be taking begins near Algonquin's East Gate and near the town of Whitney, Ontario.  I used this entry point with Tracey, Seth and Mickey John in 2012.  Here's an excerpt from an earlier post:

The route shown has a 1.6 km portage and this would only be possible if I was travelling with another person.  I can haul a canoe a few hundred metres but 1.6 km is just asking for trouble.
We would rent our canoe from the same place I used last time, Opeongo Outfitters.  We will begin at the east end of Galeairy Lake and travel west towards Aubrey Lake and setup camp there for the first night.
The second day we would head in a north-westerly direction to Rocky Lake, turn south at Jean Island and head south towards Pen Lake.  There are two small portages on this day: The first is between Galeairy and Rocky Lake (100 m) and the second is at Pen Falls, between Rocky Lake and Pen Lake.
I'm thinking we'll stay on Pen Lake for two nights before pushing east towards Night Lake.  There is a 1.6 km portage between Pen Lake and Night Lake and once we get through this we will paddle back into the northern part of Galeairy Lake.
The last day, hopefully, we will have any easy paddle back to our starting point in Whitney.
Click on the map to view a larger image of our route.

I will post pics when I return.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Books in Overdrive

After many years of ignoring the wonderful resource of electronic books from the Toronto Public Library (TPL), I've returned to reading e-books by re-downloading OverDrive -- the reader and download app used by the TPL.

A few years back I'd tried using OverDrive to access the library catalogue and found the whole process mystifying.  OverDrive, at the time, was not intuitive at all and made the simple act of signing out a book seem like a Dalian maze of steps.  The current OverDrive app is a bit more user-friendly and I've been able to muddle my way through it.

Here's a list of books I've taken to reading on my phone via OverDrive:

The Bear, by Claire Cameron, is the story of a young girl (5-ish) and her even younger brother who survive the woods of Algonquin Park after a black bear attacks the family of four (mom, dad and kids).  The most unique aspect of the novel is that it's written from the girl's perspective in a way that evokes a sense of mystery (the reader is left to figure out what the misinterpretations of a child's mind really mean), and dread for the fate of the tiny duo.  I was definitely hooked from the first few pages.

The story is based on a bear attack on a couple camping in Algonquin Park's Lake Opeongo in 1991.  I will be going to Algonquin Park far from Opeongo in August.




The Shake Off, by Mischa Hiller, is the story of an orphan of the Sabra and Shatila Massacre in Beirut in 1982.  The massacre lasted two days, carried out by Phalangist (Christian) militiamen, putatively in retaliation for the assassination of Bachir Gemayel, the newly elected President of the Lebanese Kataeb Party (a Christian Phalangist party).  In reality, the two days of killing may have been sanctioned by Israel in order to clear the refugee camps of Palestinian fighters.

Out of this chaos comes a boy, Michel, who is groomed by a high level Palestinian operative to be the ideal spy.  Educated in spy-craft, multi-lingual, able to blend in wherever he may be, easily mistaken as a Jew, or an Arab, or any number of ethnicities and trained in crossing borders without setting off any alarms.  Michel is also a broken individual: a product of witnessing the deaths of his parents and torn by his knowledge of the history of the Middle East from both the Israeli and Palestinians points of view.

The novel initially begins with a little too much of the tradecraft of the business of spying...or what passes as spying for someone unschooled in such matters.  Familiar techniques such as dead drops, fake passports, counter surveillance and honey traps, are outlined in a manner meant to school the reader rather than being worked into the story line.  Nevertheless, once the book picks up speed and the protagonists inner world is revealed, the book comes into it's own.  A revelation in the denouement makes this the ideal book for fans of John Le Carre, where spying is only a pretext for exploring wider and deeper themes.


News from the Red Desert, is a novel by Canadian writer, Kevin Patterson.  I had trouble getting into this book for the same reasons which others have cited as being part of it's charm.  It is told from multiple points of view from the outset.

The lives of the characters (soldiers and journalists) stationed in Afghanistan post-invasion are revealed with each chapter and view points change from chapter to chapter making it difficult to begin identifying with any of the characters.  In the end, I couldn't finish this book for this same reason.



Friday, June 16, 2017

Algonquin Park August 2017

Proposed Route (click on pic for larger picture)
I plan on canoeing through Algonquin Park in August this year.  The first day of the route is similar to the one I took several years ago with Tracey O., Seth and Mickey John.
Initially, I was going to go solo but it looks like I may have a paddling partner after all.
The route shown has a 1.6 km portage and this would only be possible if I was travelling with another person.  I can haul a canoe a few hundred metres but 1.6 km is just asking for trouble.
I would rent our canoe from the same place I used last time, Opeongo Outfitters.  We would begin on the east end of Galeairy Lake and travel west towards Aubrey Lake and setup camp there for the first night.
The second day we would head in a north-westerly direction to Rocky Lake, turn south at Jean Island and head south towards Pen Lake.  There are two small portages on this day: The first is between Galeairy and Rocky Lake (100 m) and the second is at Pen Falls, between Rocky Lake and Pen Lake.
I'm thinking of staying put on Pen Lake for two nights before pushing east towards Night Lake.  There is a 1.6 km portage between Pen Lake and Night Lake and once we get through this we will paddle back into the northern part of Galeairy Lake.
The last day, hopefully, we will have any easy paddle back to our starting point in Whitney.

Thursday, June 08, 2017

The Shia-Sunni Predicament

Source: Pew Research Center
A sizable bombing took place in Kabul on May 31, 2017. The bomb targeted the diplomatic area of the Afghan capital, killing at least 80 people and injuring 350. The source of the attack was likely the Haqqani network, an affiliate group directly integrated into the Taliban. The Taliban are an extremist, anti-Shia,Sunni group.
As an example, review this list of recent major attacks in Kabul targeting Shias and Hospitals:

  • May 31, 2017 -- 80 people dead with 350 injured as above.
  • 8 March 2017 - About 50 people killed after attackers dressed as doctors stormed Sardar Daud Khan military hospital
  • 21 Nov 2016 - At least 27 dead in a suicide bomb attack on Baqir ul Olum mosque during a Shia ceremony
  • 23 July 2016 - At least 80 people killed in twin bomb blasts targeting a rally by the Shia Hazara minority in Deh Mazang square


  • According to the BBC, "from Lebanon and Syria to Iraq and Pakistan, many recent conflicts have emphasised the Shia-Sunni sectarian divide, tearing communities apart." In countries with large Shia communities, and in countries governed specifically by Sunnis, Shia Muslims (invariably) tend to make up the poorest sections of society. They are often the victims of discrimination and oppression. Sunni extremists frequently denounce Shia as heretics who should be killed; even to the point of declaring them apostates. (Source: http://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-40102903)

    In January 2016, Saudi Arabia executed the prominent Shia cleric, Sheikh Nimr al-Nimr. Sheikh Nimr was a vocal supporter of the mass anti-government protests that erupted in the Eastern Province in 2011, where a Shia majority have long complained of marginalisation. He was among 47 people put to death at that time after being convicted of terrorism offences. (Source: http://www.bbc.com/news/world-middle-east-35213244)

    The international rights group Reprieve called the executions "appalling", saying at least four of those killed, including Sheikh Nimr, were put to death for offences related to political protest, not criminal behaviour.

    Meanwhile in Pakistan, as early as June 2014, Human Rights Watch, an independent and well respected agency, has said, “Pakistan’s government should take all necessary measures to stop Sunni extremist groups in Balochistan province from committing further killings and other abuses against Hazara and other Shia Muslims.”

    Following attacks on a Shia school in 2014, Ali Hussain, an elder of Ibrahimzai village in District Hangu in Pakistan, told Human Rights Watch about his reluctance to send his son to school after the attempted suicide bombing by Lashkar-i-Jhangvi (LeJ): “We already feel threatened because we are Shia. However, nobody thought that the LeJ would attack a school. School is supposed to be a place of safety of our children. For many days after the attack, my son couldn’t go to school. I also didn’t want him to.”Sectarian (Sunni) militant organizations such as the Lashkar-i-Jhangvi (LeJ) have also killed teachers who were Shia. The LeJ views Shia Muslims as heretics and their deaths as religiously justified. (Source: https://www.hrw.org/report/2017/03/27/dreams-turned-nightmares/attacks-students-teachers-and-schools-pakistan) (Source: https://www.hrw.org/news/2014/06/29/pakistan-rampant-killings-shia-extremists)

    A list by the South Asian Terrorism Portal (SATP) which compiles data on incidents of targeted violence against Shia Muslims in Pakistan, reports more than 2558 Shia were killed and over 4518 were injured from 2003 to May, 2016. (Source: https://thewire.in/41862/the-rising-threat-against-shia-muslims-in-pakistan/)Sunni jihadist groups, including Islamic State (IS), have been targeting Shia and their places of worship in Syria and neighbouring Iraq.

    “In Syria, hard-line Sunni Islamists have used harsher historic terms, such as rafidha, rejecters of the faith, and majus, Zoroastrian or crypto Persian, to describe Shias as heretical.

    In contrast Iraq’s “foremost Shia religious authority, Grand Ayatollah Ali al-Sistani, has been a voice for sectarian restraint in Iraq, and the country's Shia community absorbed thousands of deaths before fighting back with their own militias” backed by Iranian support.

    Shia leaders, however, are not without fault. Iranian officials, Iraqi politicians, and Hassan Nasrallah, the leader of Hezbollah, routinely describe their Sunni opponents as takfiris (referring to the doctrine embraced by al-Qaeda of declaring fellow Muslims apostate) and Wahhabis (referring to the puritanical Saudi sect). This cycle of demonization has been amplified throughout the Muslim world.”

    The irony is, according to the Council on Foreign Relations, “Sunni and Shia Muslims have lived peacefully together for centuries. In many countries it has become common for members of the two sects to intermarry and pray at the same mosques. They share faith in the Quran and the Prophet Mohammed’s sayings and perform similar prayers, although they differ in rituals and interpretation of Islamic law.” Source: https://www.cfr.org/peace-conflict-and-human-rights/sunni-shia-divide/p33176#!/

    Instead of promoting brotherhood and peaceful coexistence, many rulers and politicians throughout the Muslim world seek to further the differences between Muslims of all stripes. What can be done to stop the use of Sunni versus Shia and Shia versus Sunni?

    In order to tackle the sectarian divide, tolerance must be preached by Sunni and Shia alike. People experiencing insecurity (economic, through conflict or otherwise) tend to fall back on their religious identities and then demonize others. In this regard, the principle of mutual co-existence and respect for differences ( which are for the most part in practice but not in substance) must be preached by the Ulema and by teachers in schools and parents at home. The example of the Prophet (PBUH) and his progeny would be a great place to begin making a positive difference.

    Tuesday, June 06, 2017

    Lead on MacDuff!

    So, here I am.  On the brink of another summer. Making plans to sweep the house clean; re-organize the garage; detail the cars; go solo to the interior of Algonquin, lie on the beach at Sibbald Point; drag the kids with me when all they seem to want to do is hang-out at the house and commune with devices; take on new work (at work); spend time with family and friends; plan to save for a trip to Tanzania or Jamaica depending on whom you ask.

    It all seems a little overwhelming.  A bit much.  And I'm keenly aware that the summer months are short, too short.  All of a sudden it feels as if time is passing much too fast.

    The most difficult thing to do is to get things done simply with clarity and brevity.  So I have decided that those last few words: Clarity and brevity are to be my mantra for the foreseeable future.  For work, home, family, friends: I no longer feel I have the luxury of frittering time away.

    I will not spend time, my time, at events; at dinners; at projects; in conversations; on social media; or do anything that doesn't hold any intrinsic value for me.  It may come off as arrogant, or rude, but I will strive to no longer care except as it relates to me and the people who are important to me.

    If I'm at a party, as soon as it has reached the end of it's life -- I'm out.  I will no longer sit at tables, measuring my departure or continuance based on the mood in the room, the colour of the sky, people's feelings, or my imaginings of their thinking.  I will be careful not to impugn motives to them or let my imagination of their thinking limit my actions.  To some extent I have been doing this all along but writing down helps to solidify the fragmented thoughts.

    So, that's my declaration of freedom for the summer of 2017.  Follow, lead or get out of the way.

    Monday, March 27, 2017

    Open Letter to the Park Hyatt in Goa

    Dear Park Hyatt,

    I know it's been quite some time since I was with you. My apologies for not writing sooner. Between getting back to Toronto, starting into work and family commitments, I simply haven't found any time to write.
    I recently posted some more pics of you that Anwar had taken. You may remember him from our visit in late September of last year. Anyways, the pictures have brought you back to mind: Memories of having showers in your rooms...was it 348? Forgive me.
    Your lush grounds which were meticulously kept by the battalion of grounds-people; chestnut brown meandering boardwalks leading to a white-sand beach, which literally went on for miles and miles. Your multiple pools: so clean, curvaceous and inviting. The fountains on the pathways leading to our room. The palm trees, the ochre-red earth which nurtured such luxuriant growth, the birds and yes, even the lizards have me singing your praises.
    I apologize for not writing sooner, but also, for not squeezing more enjoyment out of our time together. For taking you for granted and caring overly much for my own comfort. Besides your memories all I have left are questions. Why didn't I take more pictures of you? Explore your alleyways and touch the stone work I walked on?  Why didn't I use the hot tub at night? Why is it not possible for my mind to be as still as a photograph and for long enough to lull me to sleep with you in mind?
    In the pool closest to the ocean, there's a large rock. A spot where my friend and I spent a whole afternoon lazing about. And into that rock, which sits on the edge of the pool, a seat has been carved. You must know the one I mean. It's a place where a person can clamber out of the pool and sit on the half-submerged rock-seat and admire the grounds leading to the beach, and further on, the ocean. A great place to take a break from the labours of swimming. I didn't recognize it at the time for what it was -- a sublime spot for repose.
    I hate to sound overly sentimental, but it is this way, especially when I think of you. What can one say in closing except, thank you.
    P.S. I inadvertently scrapped two inches of skin off my right shin while walking around the larger pool. The bleeding wouldn't stop. My friend suggested calling someone to bandage my leg. It was painful and large but I was too busy dealing with the embarrassment to give the flap of skin much thought. I tore it off and let it fall; moved on. Now I think, wistfully, that perhaps you knew I would soon depart and this was your way of keeping a little of me with you. Well, I still carry the scar from that scrape.  A strange bond.
    I will return one day. I promise.